This was very touching to read. I feel very sorry for what you've been through. While it's not quite as bad, I struggle to find people that accept me. A few of my friends are in this clique that I'm only kind of in because of them. The others dont want me there. Now that I have been staying around them for a while, they have gotten more used to me. The same should go for you. All you need to remember is that persistence pays off. If you need to get your mind off things, do something peaceful but private like running. Or do what all of us are here for, which is building knex models. I dont know about you, but I kind of get into a zone when I'm building. Its a time when you can think to yourself while your mind is focused on rationality. If you are pissed off about something, make a track that crashes into something or something evil like that. Its part of why we love it, because we can completely customize it to express ourselves. Basically, just push through this and find the best way to think out your problems.
Thanks, it's a good idea. I used to do that, but somehow it stopped working for me. Building only gets me more down now...
You wil hang on because we wont let you go! Never stop beleving' after evry dark period will come a happy one. That might be hard to think about but that is how things work.
Komt allemaal goed het heeft alleenwat tijd nodig, we zijn er voor je SSC is een famillie en niemand blijft achter! Als ik je ooit ergens mee kab helpen moet je het even zeggen okee?
Klmt goed, blijf vol houden!
Thanks, I'll try atleast. Sometimes there just doesn't seem to be a light at the end of the tunnel, you know what I mean?
Hang in there Bart
You're a smart kid with a bright future. All this will pass. Teen years are tough, there is a lot of strong emotions and things can seem a lot bigger than they are. Try to find a professional for counselling, it can really help, if not seek out an adult who cares about you other than your parents, maybe an aunt or uncle, older cousin?
You would probably be better off staying away from alcohol at least until you feel better. It is a big depressant and the depressing effects last a lot longer than the buzz you feel for a few hours.
This is advice is for all of you bright teens who are having moments of doubt and depression. Remember it will pass, seek help, stay healthy.
I talked to my parents about this. Sometimes I really need to lay down for a day, and they allow me to stay home. They know what's going on in my head now, so they can support me.
Staying off the alcohol was a great idea. I only drink 2 or 3 beers when going out now. Alcohol can ruin your mood for a week when you have too much...
I'm sorry to hear that, Bart. Life isn't always easy. But there's no doubt it's worth fighting for. Sometimes, the thing you think will cause you to lose friends and feel left out can actually be the thing that helps you make your closest friends and realize how special you are. Don't forget that you're the product of your friends and family. Never lose faith in your friends. They can be an amazing source of strength, and can help you overcome even your greatest fears. I hope you get through this, Dude.
Thanks, I hope so. I've always completely accepted myself, I was always arrogant and I had a huge ego. But I'm totally different now. I care a lot about what people think of me, which is very uncommon for me. But I am learning who my real friends are now, and they are learning who I really am. In the end I might be a better person.
Listen (or read 
), you are an amazing, creative, and intelligent person. There ARE many great things that you can do with your life. Go to college, get a great job. Engineering, art, architecture, anything within your skillset. NEVER talk like this again, whether it's to someone or yourself. Forgive me if I'm wrong, but your words sound somewhat suicidal. That is NOT THE ANSWER!! There is always going to be someone who cares about you or likes the same things. If you don't think there is, look harder! Plus, you always have us to keep you company. We care about you, man. Don't let go. Live your life to the fullest. There is always something good you can do with your life.
I know I can do great things. But subconsciously my mind is telling me I suck. It's like a... dark passenger.
People at your school? Thats just wiered..... I'm not sure how to respond other than ignoring them.
No not (only) at school. Some people just started doing that.
Just brush it off man, I know it's hard sometimes..
Being called something, especially a fag is just pathetic on their behalf.
(if you are homosexual, so what? - I think I remember you saying you were Bi-curious?) and it doesn't matter, they're calling you a fag because their brains literally cannot think of anything else.
I wouldn't 'stoop' to their level by responding / fighting, maybe just tell a teacher.
They are saying it kinda jokingly I guess, but it's uncomfortable for me, because I know that I am different, sexually. I accept who I am and if I ever meet "the one" and it happens to be a guy I'd not let anything stand in my way. But for the time being I'd rather stay unnoticed. Indeed I'll just brush it off, hope it will suffice.
In my life I’ve been bullied from the age of 6 until the age of 16. That was probably the worst time of my life. But I never gave up and I just continued with life. It was really the worst time of my life.
Just like you I thought the world was hating me. But now it’s over it has taken a very long time but now it’s over. Often it looks like the world hates you but that’s not true. After a while you notice that you need to stay yourself only the people that accept you like that are your real friends. My dad was also depressed and overwrought. But there will always be people that want to help you and who will be there for you. Just never give up and keep fighting put your head up in the air and then after some time the world will smile at you and your life will be great. That’s just the most important thing. Sadly enough people don’t realize that. They are the ones that are afraid that they will be like you. But think about it. You are learning so much right now. People that are getting things like this when they are grown up can totally collapse. While you already know how to handle it right now.
Like I said it’s a really bad period in your life but after that you are the hero because you over won your emotions. Then you are the hero because you were how you are and you not because you are not how you really are.
I hope this helps to all of you people. Sorry for my orthography but this is also a very emotional subject for me. In fact I am almost crying behind my computer but always remind I will be there for you. Hope this helps all of you guys.
-Jespercoasters-
Like I said on msn, thanks for this. You describe it very well. From now on I'll see this dark period as my road to being a hero. Thanks a lot.
Thanks a lot everyone for the support. I think I'll get out of this eventually.
-Bart.
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